Idiot and I got into a big one today.  He just doesn't go away when I demand him to go and leave me alone.

And again, I'm letting something else drive me to smoke........... again.  Speaking of smokes, Idiot found mine.  He was not happy.  In fact, he told me he almost threw them in the toilet but decided that the consequences of that action would be painful.

Back to the big one.  It was so bad I started hitting him in his chest.  I've never gotten physical with anyone while arguing.  A demon possessed me, I swear.  It was unleashed.

But the thing I don't get.... I tell him to go away because I'm mad at him.  Whether I have a legitimate reason to be mad at him or not, it truly is best for the both of us if he goes away.  What does he do?  "I'm sorry that I'm upsetting you.  I only want to help you," he says as I'm slamming the door in his face but he blocks the door from being shut.  Then I start yelling at him.  "Why do you say you want to help when I tell you to go away?  You say you're sorry for upsetting me but you won't go away!  Which makes me fucking upset!" I'm yelling this as he's being hit.

Maybe I'm just a hypochondriac (sp?) but I think I'm developing an ulcer.

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