I'm going to try to keep this entry brief. I was recently hired on as a resident assistant (RA) for my college. So, now I have to cram 3 weeks of training into 1 week before classes start.
All the the other RA trainees have worked with one another for at least 3 weeks..... they already have their bonds.
I feel as if it's high school all over again..... which I hated. There's the "popular" people and the "loners". I'm a natural loner and fake "popular". All the other girls are beautiful, giggly, bubbly, PERKY, seem to know everything..... and I obviously don't have any of those qualities. I'm better than this but the passed 2 days, I've been comparing myself to these fake girls. I'm not like them but I keep comparing myself to them..... why am I doing that to myself?!
My area coordinator (AC) told me to try to stay away from the people I knew previously and try to get to know everyone else. How can I just throw myself out of my comfort zone? I have to ease my way into new zones, right? I'm not a drastic change person unless I deem it necessary. And I do not deem it necessary dammit!
Everyone keeps using achronyms and not explaining things to me. I'm begining to think that everyone is wondering why I was hired. I really don't fit in. I'm from a complete different world than these people.
Must go. I have RA duties due. Please! Somebody spoon my eye out!
14 people spitting.